But I proved myself wrong when a telephone call from India threw my mind in a tizzy. Since than I knew that I must not only read Gita but assimilate it in life so that I am ready for any eventuality.
During a trip to the US to spend some time with my children and participate in the study group of Chinmay Mission, another experience awaited me. I thought I was perfectly healthy when I left for US. A fortnight before leaving for India. All my energy was drained and it became difficult to even walk a few feet. The sugar in blood went up above 400. I lost more than 16 kg within a few days. there was no appetite and no food intake. I was hospitalised, and tests showed that I was suffering from a rare type of incurable cancer.
I was also told that considering my weak condition they won't recommend any treatment like chemotherapy. They gave me only four weeks to live and asked me to reconcile to that. This was the nearest. I came face to face with death.
I went through it all calmly, and I found I was a gainer. If I die I am sure He would take me in his shelter. If He gives me a little more time, I can fulfill some of my remaining desires of attending more Gita lectures and camps at Rishikesh.
Since then eight weeks have passed; and I responded well to chemotherapy at another hospital. The swelling is gone, and I can walk around. I now know why I read Gita. "Fix your mind on Me alone, place your intellect in Me, you shall then no doubt live in Me alone hence-forth. I promise you shall come to Me alone because you are dear to Me".
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